Confessions of a Worry Wart

If you know me well, you probably already know that I am a bit of a worry wart.  I worry about finances, how the food I cook tastes, if I have been nice enough to people, finances, if our apartment is clean when people come over, if Chace is getting enough healthy food, blah, blah blah... and did I mention I worry about finances?  I feel really bad that Trav has to deal with me stressing over money all the time but I think we both are ready to someday get out of the student, hourly wage, pay check to pay check rut.  Sometimes I find myself worrying about the future too much that I forget to just enjoy the wonderful blessings we receive day to day.

So, I've been trying really hard to focus on how much we've received, rather than the opposite.  This past month Trav had a little battle with his gall bladder which sent him to the ER twice, lots of tests and finally surgery last week to have it removed.  Although you would think a stresser like me would flip, the opposite has actually happened and it has been awesome!  I've started to realize and gain an even greater affirmation that we have a Father in Heaven who does know everything and that he leads and blesses us if we choose to follow him.  I think of how the timing of the job opening that was given to me was amazing.  Just a short time after I accepted the part time job in September we found out I was pregnant.  That made for a long first three months of pregnancy with the 4:45am shifts, but with it came insurance benefits!  We were thrilled to have insurance for the arrival of this baby, but little did we know we were being watched over even more.  We haven't ever had real insurance for Trav, so without this job, we would have been paying mucho money for this gall bladder stuff!

It also happened at the beginning of the year when those tax returns come around.  Although you know we were planning on spending the return on an extravagant trip to the Republic of Pay Off Student Loans, we will now be able to pay off the medical bills that the insurance didn't cover and still have some for the baby as well.  Student loans can wait right.  :)   We have also been so blessed by the love of others.  My dear friend Kaleena showed up unexpectedly with a meal for us last week that saved me from going insane... I mean more insane.  Then Trav's sister came over yesterday and randomly brought us fruit, bread, cereal and snacks for Chace.  A big deal when Trav hasn't been able to work much this past month and the grocery budget is tight!  We have so many fabulous friends and family who help us out so much.  I really am so grateful for all the people who have been divinely placed in our lives!

So I'm really sorry this is such a long post, I could go on forever about what I've been realizing these past few weeks, but I just wanted to somehow show my gratitude for a loving Heavenly Father and all our friends and family.  I am so grateful to be a mother and a wife and couldn't ask for a better place to be at 23 years old.  And who could worry too much when you've got this little guy to cheer you up during recovery:

(Really, you thought I could post without a picture of the Chace man?)